Sunday, 8 January 2017

My last blog?

I It has been over a year since I last wrote here. Wow. I didn't think it was that long. There has been big changes in the last year. We had my gorgeous baby boy Dec 2015. It wasn't the easiest pregnancy nor the  easiest birth. But he's here, happy and healthy. He's a big personality with a big voice. A voice he's recently discovered and now shrieks a lot because he finds it hilarious. We do too, but not at 6am! We called him Daniel. He is my world and I could not imagine life without him. His cheeky smile, the precious little hugs that he's recently started to give and his huge eyes. He started walking a week before Christmas using his push along walker and is standing unaided a lot now and getting more confident. Unfortunately he's getting teeth. I say unfortunately because he's having a rough time of it with them. The last tooth to come up has taking a couple of weeks to push through. He's normally so happy and smiley so it's horrible seeing him in so much pain. We are just in love with him. Our perfect little boy. He has a couple of Buddies too from his baby group and its too cute seeing them play and grow together. He turned 1 just after Christmas and its still hard to believe how quickly the year has gone.

Unfortunately as happy and completely in love with him, I've been suffering really badly with post natal depression. Some days are OK and others are terrible. I was always going to be prone to it but I wasn't prepared for how bad it is. I've been having a pretty bad time with it lately and I'm just not myself. I am getting counselling and help but right now it's just bad. A few friends suggested I write about it in a blog or a few blogs but I'm not ready to open myself up that way at all right now. I'm so sick and tired of feeling angry and sad and completely losing my shit over stupid things. I'm going to start taking a bit of time for myself, read more and play more playstation. It helps with the anxiety.

Michael got a new job too. He's a security guard now and apart from the sore feet, he really likes it. I do miss him when he's at work even if I don't show it as much as I could.

I don't know if I'll be writing anymore but I know I have a huge audience reading my blog so I'm going to take time to think about it and decide what to do :)

On the gaming side I now have 16 platinums. I plan to double that this year or try hit 50.which is doable. As we now have a ps4 and I have a playstation vita. Michaels obsessed with his 3DS and pokemon 😂